Announcing My Divine Radiance!

3 Fun and Exciting New Announcements!

Hello Beautiful Radiant Beings:

We have 3 Divine New Updates to share with you!

First Announcement:

We are now living in Austin: Texas' most beautiful and progressive city! We are enthusiastic to be here and are expanding our network of family and friends. If you have loving friends and family here in Austin, please facilitate our connection - we are excited to meet new Beautiful Beings!

Second Announcement:

We invite you to join our new Meetup Group - Wherever you are in our world! We created our Meetup group especially for our Divine Radiant Friends and Family who enjoy Embodying your Divine Radiance through living foods, conscious language, conscious community, and conscious prosperity.

Many of our groups meet in Austin, Texas, and we also create global events via Tele-FUN-Calls! Please join our group to receive your invitations to our in-person and virtual gatherings.

Some of our Meetup topics include: 

  - Living Foods and Super Foods to Super Charge our Natural Immunity - Naturally! 

  - Living and Structured Water 

  - Sacred Dance
  - The Magical Alchemy of Cultured Foods 

  - Emotional Alchemy 

  - Question and Answer Sessions 

  - Updates on Our Favorite Super Food Products 

  - Essential Oil Alchemy 

  - And we invite your suggestions for topics, as well!
We invite you to join with us in expressing our Divine Love and remembering our Divine Radiance!

Third Announcement:

We Launched Our New Website! Please visit www.MyDivineRadiance.com to Empower Your Radiant Health Naturally!

We created this site to share empowering information and products that assist you in fully embodying your:

• Physical Health and Your Ideal Body Shape, Size, and Feel
  
• Emotional Health and Your Joyous, Peaceful Expression
• Mental Health and Your Quiet, Confident Mind
• Spiritual Health and Your Connection with Your God, Mother Nature, and Your Experience of Oneness
  

   ... All with Grace, Ease, and Wonderment!

As you explore MyDivineRadiance.com, you will notice a few pages with content 'coming soon'. We will notify you each time we post new information to the site. The best way receive updates is to join our Meetup Group, Join our Facebook page, or Join our Email Newsletter (sign up for our newsletter by completing the form at the top right of this page). 


We love you and thank you for being in our lives!
Krystalle and Arttemis

 

Vision Quest Blessings IX: My Loving Community

Samantha and I share water as she drives me home. I share many of my Vision Quest accounts with her. She is a great listener and a beautifully powerful presence who is escorting me back into my daily world with grace and love. When I arrive home, my beloved Arttemis is waiting for me with a beautiful hug and his bright smile. I am grateful for my loving welcome! I enjoy a very refreshing shower and rest quietly until inipi time.

As evening washes the landscape I journey to our inipi site. Our elders held two rounds of inipi (Lakota Sweat Lodge Ceremony) with Dan and I as we began our vision quests. Now it is time for the final two rounds.

I am participating in preparations by the fire, and am staying out of the lodge for our final two rounds. I started my moon today and am honoring Lakota tradition: women on their moon stay outside of the lodge.

I am here to share my gratitude and my gifts. Then I will go home while Dan, our elders, and our fire-keepers hold the final two rounds and share the pipe. I am feeling disappointed about not participating in our lodge. I am also grateful. My moon cycle is a powerful cleanse and requires my strength. I feel staying out of lodge at this time is a wise decision for me.

As we gather around the fire, Yellow Horse and Cloud Dancer welcome Dan and I back from our journeys. They share beautiful words of wisdom and support. Then Yellow Horse asks me to share some of my experiences and gifts. Dan will share his experiences in lodge. I share my gratitude with Yellow Horse and Cloud Dancer for holding space and supporting my journey as my elders. I thank my brother Dan for embarking on his journey at the same time I experienced mine. I share my experience of trusting my inner guidance as I hiked to my Vision Quest circle. I share about the bear in the waterfall and my hues of compassion.

When I finish, some of our fire-keepers share their journeys and experiences as they tended fire. My beautiful friend Ariel shares that on her watch, she saw me on the mountain in my space. She felt that any people or animals who entered my space came as visitors, guests, and messengers. Each time she 'checked in', she saw me safe and secure. Ariel also had her children with her while she tended her watch. I feel this brought a beautiful element of innocence, purity, and love to my Vision Quest. Ariel's sharing is a beautiful complement to Krysa, who says she came to the fire to see for herself that Dan and I are alive and safe!

As my friends are sharing their experiences by the fire, I notice they are mirroring some of my and Dan's experiences. They also faced some of their fears and transformed their shadows into their Divine Light. I recognize I am blessed and supported by my friends' and spiritual family's honesty, strength, courage, and confidence. I receive with deep gratitude each person's respect and support.

I have a new understanding and recognition of my blessings. I recognize the vast current of love that flows through all of our hearts. I am blessed to be a member of this loving community.

I worked at the Tree of Life Rejuvenation Center front desk for 1.5 years. This position allowed me to experience interactions with everyone in our community, and our guests. I noticed most of my interactions with community and staff were brief. Sometimes I wondered if my interactions were complete - sometimes I even wondered if they were meaningful. I desired to be fully present within each interaction and to see each conversation in its Divine expression and perfection.

My Vision Quest experience is revealing my truth. My love is real and infinite. Every interaction, however short or long, is meaningful and perfectly Divine. Standing around the fire and seeing love in everyone's eyes, I see my blessings clearly. I embrace every interaction's full Divine expression and perfection, and I am grateful for every interaction and every conversation I share.

I completed my Vision Quest four months ago, and I continue to integrate my experiences on new levels. For example, I now understand that embracing every interaction's full Divine expression requires my commitment to being fully present. I recommit to being fully present in all of my interactions! I continue to remember my blessings and my gifts. I still require corrective lenses for now, and as I see my blessings clearly and fully embrace my joy in my life, I see transitioning out of corrective lenses into my clear, natural vision. I embrace my renewed strength, courage, confidence, and faith.

This is my final entry in my Vision Quest Series. I am grateful to all who participated in my Vision Quest:

• Yellow Horse - Thank you for seeing my truth and supporting my journey at the Tree and on my Vision Quest. I love you and I respect you.
  
• Cloud Dancer - Thank you for helping me make my first gourd rattle. I discovered beautiful messages from my soul in that endeavor. Thank you for feeling my love and shining your light...and thank you for your Bear Hugs! I love you.
  
• My brother Dan - Thank you for holding this amazing space with me. I appreciate your kindness, your strength, and your BEing. Thank you for being you and for sharing you with me. I love you.
  
• My escorts and dear friends, Samantha and Krisanga - Thank you both for your support and guidance during my transitions into and from my Vision Quest circle. I appreciate both of you and love you both dearly.
  
• All of our fire-keepers - Wow! I thank all of you for holding your loving space by the fire. I felt your love, support, and encouragement while I was on my journey. I am also grateful for your experiences you shared with me. Thank you for journeying with me. I love you!
  
• My beloved, Arttemis - Thank you for supporting me in just the way I required during this time. I honor you for listening to your inner guidance. I love you and thank you.
  
• My elder Keith: Thank you for participating in spirit, and for priming me for this moment - simply by being who you are! I love you.
  
• Anthea, Philip, Jillian, and Kaia who nurtured the Tree of Life frond desk while I was on Vision Quest. Thank you Beauties! I love all of you!
  
• My sister Santi: Thank you for being exactly who you are. Thank you for knowing your truth and listening to your heart's guidance. I love you!
• My community members who supported me: Thank you for your prayers and blessings. I love you!
  
• Uncle Tim and my sister Angela: Thank you for sharing your messages of love, support, and guidance. I love you.
  
• Toot (my grandmother), Mom, and Dad: Thank you for bringing me into our world in love. I love you!
• All who have read these words: Thank you for continuing to support my journey with your own experiences and insights. You offer me a forum to further integrate my magical experiences. I love you.

Blessings and Love to our beautiful planet Earth. As we all experience our transformations, I am enthusiastic to witness our planetary transformation as well. I am honored to take part in these amazing times of transforming our shadows into Our Divine Light!

Krystalle Keszainn

Vision Quest Blessings VIII: My Journey Home

After receiving my gift at Turquoise Canyon, I continue walking down the mountain. I am noticing more footprints on the path than I recall seeing in the past - animal and human! I wonder if Krisanga and Samantha have been hiking here to hold space with me? I am warmed by the thought of my friends supporting my journey.

These footprints could also belong to "migrant workers" who travel this trail. Before I began my journey, I was aware of two fears: wild animal attacks and interactions with drug traffickers. Now I no longer fear. My faith is strong, especially after feeling my intense experience of love's power this morning at the waterfall.

As I am contemplating my beautiful transformations of fear into my faith, I hear footsteps behind me. I turn to see whose feet I am hearing, and feel my lips spread wide into a wide, penetrating...smile! I turn around, smiling, and see two Mexican men dressed in jeans and sweatshirts. They have no backpacks or equipment. I continue smiling, then I wave hello, and offer a greeting.

The first man approaches me and says, "Hello. My name is Alejandro." Thank goodness he speaks English!

"Hello Alejandro. My name is Krystalle." Alejandro asks if I live close by. I tell him I am hiking home, and I still have a long journey ahead of me. As these words come from my heart, my head wonders how safe it is to tell these two men that I am far from home.

He introduces me to his friend Alberto and tells me they have work in the mountains here. Then he asks how long I have been in the mountains. "Three days."

"With no tent?"

"Yes. I have been sleeping under the stars and it has been one of the most amazing experiences of my life."

"Have you seen anyone else here?"

"No. Just you two."

Then Alejandro asks me if I smoke. I hold back a giggle and tell him no. I find it amusingly ironic that he asked me if I smoke when I am a live-food-light-bearing-water-priestess who is now on my 4th day of my Vision Quest in the desert. Of course, he has no way of knowing this!

Then he asks, "Do you want to smoke?"

"No, thank you. I am ready to go home now."

"OK. Bye."

With that, Alejadro and Alberto walk back up the mountain. I continue towards home, reflecting on how friendly our conversation has been. I am at peace.

I imagine it is 9:30 or 10am now. Samantha agreed to meet me on the trail around 11am and hike back with me. I am at the crossroads where I can either go up a mountain or around by way of the creek. I desire to meet Samantha on the trail, and I choose to know which route she is taking. I decide to wait here for a while. Regardless of which route she takes, we will certainly meet here at the crossroads.

I sit on a large rock and take my backpack off. Both of my water bottles are half-full. This is probably enough water to get me back to the car. I rest for a while and drink in the warm sun. Ahhh - I feel amazingly alive.

After a while, I receive my inner guidance to continue my journey. Where is Samantha? I call for her to see if she is near enough to hear my voice. No answer. I call again - and hear silence.

I have faith in my inner guidance, so I continue hiking along the creek. I decide to draw large arrows in the sand, depicting my journey. If Samantha finds them she will see where I am going. I am also enjoying drawing arrows in the sand! I giggle as I recognize I feel as though I am on a treasure hunt - or in an Indiana Jones movie. Perhaps I am the treasure!

I hike down the creek to my turn-off point. From here, I am required to follow my inner guidance and knowing. The trail to the car is not clearly marked. The last time I hiked here with a group of friends, our directives were to cross over two mountain ridges, go to the top of the third, and look for the trail there.

Keeping these guidelines in mind, I follow my inner guidance. Periodically I call for Samantha to see if she is in range of my voice, and I continue my journey towards the trailhead.

Wow - I am really appreciating my inner guidance right now! I keep finding small trails and pathways that allow my journey to be easier and more graceful than my past ventures through this area.

I also notice that listening to my inner guidance and hiking up and down two mountain ridges requires my full presence - here and now! I am fully engaged with my journey home, so when a question of "I wonder where Samantha is?" comes in, I stop, give a couple of identifying vocal calls, listen, then continue - fully focused and present - with my journey.

I am aware that I can direct my energy towards what-if's, fear about whether Samantha is okay, and concern about finding my way back, or I can direct all of my energy to my journey home and my faith that all is in Divine Order. I opt for my Divine Faith!

Finally I reach the third mountain ridge. I know I am where I desire to be. I recognize it by its feel and its familiar scenery. I turn to look behind me and congratulate myself for coming this far. This is certainly an amazing journey!

From this ridge I know there is a trail to follow down the steep hillside, then up another very steep, rocky ridge, to the place where we park our cars...to where I'm assuming Samantha's car is parked. My next task is to find the trail. I am surprised I have yet to see Samantha.

I walk along the mountain ridge until I find the trail down. My body is physically tired. I drank all of my water and have about three ounces of my green drink/bee pollen tonic left. The nearest water is back at the creek. Where is Samantha? Breathe, Krystalle...

I choose to focus on my breath and remain fully present as I walk with care down the steep, rocky hill side. Whew! I feel a sense of relief as I reach the bottom - mainly from my shaky legs! Now I have a stretch of relatively flat, well-shaded area to traverse before my final big climb up to the car. I enjoy this flat, shaded part of the hike. I greet the large cottonwood and oak trees with gratitude for their shade and shelter from the increasing wind. I am in a beautiful valley!

I round a corner and stop in my tracks. Am I seeing clearly? Is this an illusion? A big smile spreads across my face. About 50 yards in front of me is Samantha's car! She drove down that crazy steep rocky hill so I have reprieve from hiking up it! YES! I am so very blessed! In my internal reality I am turning somersaults and jumping from treetop to treetop! My physical body simply walks warily and gratefully towards the car, my smile beaming from ear to ear.

I am so happy to know that Samantha is here somewhere! I call to see if she is within reach of my voice... I hear silence. Well, at least I know she is here somewhere! She will be back to her car at some point - perhaps in a few minutes...or a few hours.

I am grateful for my opportunity to rest. I take a sip of my green drink, lay my poncho on the ground, and close my eyes. Within about 10 minutes I hear Samantha's call. I call back. I hear her call again, and see her run around the same corner I rounded earlier! As soon as she sees me, she yells, "You scared the crap out of me - Thank you!"

We both laugh and share a great hug. We talk about what an amazing exercise of faith this has been for both of us. When we are satisfied that we are both well, safe, and secure, I point excitedly to her car and say, "Thank you for driving down here. I am so grateful!"

I am also grateful it is Samantha who is here during this part of my journey. I can feel she has been holding a solid resonant vobration of faith. Even though our meeting is not happening in accordance with our conscious plan, all is in Divine Order for us to return home safely. Thank you Samantha - I love you!

Stay Tuned for Part IX: My Loving Community

Vision Quest Blessings Part VII: My Gift from Water

I open my eyes and breathe a deep, full breath. I am observing this morning's brightening colors and the cool, crisp air. Today is my final day on the mountain. I am nearing the completion of my journey.


I recognize that I have some logistics to tend to today: clearing my space, packing, and hiking down the mountain. First, it is time to perform my closing ceremonies.

I climb out of my sleeping bag. Whoops - Careful, Krystalle! (I often talk to myself when I require my attention!) I am feeling dizzy on the fourth morning of my water fast. I am okay. I am supported. Breathe. Breathe. Ahhh...I feel present in my body now. Why do we call it fasting, anyway? I am certainly doing things more slowly!

I create a small fire in my fire circle and offer a blessing to the beautiful nature spirits who surround me:

• Thank you Mother Earth, for supporting my journey. I feel your love and I am secure.
• Thank you Water, for clearing my way to become aware of my emotions. Thank you also for cleansing the debris of my past and showing me my true, Radiant Being.
• Thank you Fire, for fueling my amazing transformations.
• Thank you Air, for carrying my prayers to my God and to my human family.

I honor your assistance in my Vision Quest journey and in my every day.

With this prayer, I offer sage and place my prayer ties in the fire. I release all cords of attachment and feel my prayers soar free. When the fire is out, I clear my altar, sharing gratitude with my guides and with all of the directions. I remove my direction flags and replace the rocks from my circle to their natural configuration.

As I pack my gear, I glance at my path down the mountain. Wow. That looks steep today! I note the fear I am feeling and choose to come back fully into my present moment and have faith about my journey down. I made it here safely, and I will successfully descend.

I filter two bottles of crisp, clear water and add Vitamineral Green and Bee Pollen to one. Ahhh...nourishment from the gods! I allow the bee pollen to soften for a few minutes, then take my first drink. Heavenly and satisfying! My body desires just a few sips. I recognize that instead of drinking this all in one sitting, I will enjoy my first meal throughout my journey home.

I finish packing up my gear and hoist my backpack onto my shoulders. Whoa! My body is feeling a bit unsteady. I decide to move more slowly and be aware of my steps and my movements.

I turn around to see the waterfall one more time. Instantly I connect with my gratitude for this water, and for my experience. I am suddenly simultaneously crying and laughing, heaving my words and feelings of gratitude, between my sobs, into the powerful water before me. I am connecting intimately - intensely - with water's true essence and power. I continue to ride this surf of emotion as it courses through me.

I am forever changed, and forever blessed. I feel my water flowing in my body. Instantaneously, I feel the gratitude and blessings I am sharing with the waterfall rush into my being - mirrored back to me tenfold.

I am breathing great, full, rapid breaths to allow my intense waves of love and gratitude to resonate with every cell, atom, and electron of my being. This is a glimpse of true love's power - and it is far more powerful than any feeling I recall experiencing. I have full faith in the power of God's love! The power of this experience easily transforms even my darkest shadow feelings. I am feeling torrential, rushing rapids of cleansing love!

I am aware of an amazing realization: I can take the darkest of my dark thoughts, the most terrifying fear, the nastiest evils I have ever felt, combine them all together, and multiply them by 100... and their power still does not hold a candle to the explosive power of love I am feeling now.

Even as I am writing now (three months after completing my Vision Quest), my experience and my emotions of gratitude and love flood powerfully to and through me. As I am feeling this incredible power again, I am realizing what one of my teachers really means when he says, "love your fear, love your pain, love your hate." Even the most intense anger, hatred, and rage I have felt or heard of in my past are instantly dissolved in love's true power. I believe! I believe! I have faith in my God's love.

When my exchange with the waterfall is complete, I begin my journey down the mountain - forever changed in love's power. I climb and walk slowly, remaining fully present in my body. I can feel every rock, twig, leaf, and grain of sand under my feet. My senses feel so aware. I feel life and breath in all of my surroundings.

I stop to rest every 100 yards or so. I hear my breath as I walk, and I feel water's essence as I make my way down the winding creek.

I stop at the opening to turquoise canyon. I am awed by its beauty. I sit on a rock and listen to water. She begins to sing... Actually, I realize her song is already in progress, and has been for aeons. I hear a chorus of the most beautiful angelic voices singing a continuous melody. Part of this melody stays with me and repeats itself in my mind. It is so beautiful - I feel so blessed and touched. I share gratitude, take a deep, loving breath, and begin walking again.

The melody continues to loop in my mind. Then, from my BEing, words weave into the melody. I am receiving a gift from water - a song. Thank you! I am honored and grateful for my gift. I sing this song in its beautiful simplicity from my heart, in honor of this magical moment.

Stay Tuned for Part VIII: My Journey Home

Cosmic Inspirations!

I wrote this post at the July 2009 full moon. I am still deeply touched by the energies that moved through me that day and am enthusiastic to share this message with you. Enjoy!
Each full moon is personal and universal, while a few times a year an eclipse reveals more to us. The energy spectrum is broadened for us to view more than usual. At this eclipse (the exact eclipse happened early this morning, and we are still in the window of its energy), we are invited to broaden our understanding of what is stirring in our world, to re-ignite hope in our world's people, and to confront our old voices of societal authority within us, so we can more clearly hear our own inner voices.
-This message was adapted from Julia Biondi's message on MoonCircles.com

Krystalle's Commentary:
In some parts of our world, people such as the Iranian Lionesses are standing up to their governments, voicing their desires, and demanding respect. How can we truly make a difference in our world?
I invite us to delve within and identify our 'societal programming', 'thought-forms', and 'inherited beliefs' we carry. I invite us to stand firmly in our Truth and our Divine Love, and courageously demand that we live our Divine Perfection. I am firm in my resolve: No longer do I allow "it's hard" to rule me; Now I stand grounded in my trust and courage - I demand my Divine Authority to re-inhabit its rightful place as my ruler. I banish doubt and return faith to its position of authority in my internal government. When I meet judgment and hate in my inner world, I invite them into my palace, thank them for carrying out their assigned duties, and knight them into their new roles of compassion, forgiveness, and intense love.

As we all transform our inner territory and demand that our Divine Love take its rightful place as our personal authority, our external world must change: our families, our schools, our businesses, and our governments.

Blessings in your Empowered Transformations!
Krystalle

Vision Quest Blessings Part VI: The Hues of Compassion

I slept peacefully most of the second night. Just before I woke, I remembered having two dreams.

In my first dream, I was sitting on a grassy bank in a semi-urban area. It was enclosed on all four sides by a chain-link fence. On the other side of the fence in front of me was a body of water about the size of a small lake. The grassy bank sloped down towards the lake. I reclined comfortably on the downward slope, looking at the lake. I was the only person in this enclosed area, and I found it peaceful - even while people walked by on the path lining the fence behind me.

Suddenly an animal ran past me to my right in a direct line from the fence behind me and jumped into the water. Despite its speed, I was able to see that this was one of the strangest looking animals I have ever seen. It looked like a furry wild boar with an elephant trunk and tusks - or perhaps like a miniature woolly mammoth with a body the size of a javelina (medium-sized piggish-looking animal native to the desert southwest).

I was still contemplating what type of animal this was when I heard people's voices saying, "That's a Mountain Lion!", "Don't you know that's a Mountain Lion?", "A MOUNTAIN LION!"

I turned around, thinking these people didn't get a close look at the animal that just ran by me if they were calling it a Mountain Lion...I was startled to see a Mountain Lion standing on the fence, crouched in an 'alert' stance, as though she was summing up her surroundings and deciding what to do - pounce? defend? flee?

I felt some fear as I saw her crouched, looking directly at me with her neck-hair raised at attention. Then I immediately calmed myself and said to her, "Go on - go on, now. It's okay." I did not actually speak the words. I was communicating telepathically, mostly with my feelings of peace and friendship. She relaxed her neck, turned her head, and walked peacefully away. The people who were previously in a panic began walking peacefully again.

I believe I chose to address my fear of wild animals in my dream world. Mountain Lion was on of the animals I was hesitant to encounter on this journey. I am encouraged by this dream because it showed me that at the moment of recognition - in the moment of actual encounter - I am at peace with wild animals. Even more deeply, I connected with Mountain Lion in a way that allowed us to communicate and understand each other.

(Later, when I returned home from my vision quest, I learned that my dear friend Brenda, a strong, powerful, beautifully intuitive being, was wondering why I felt a fear of animals when she saw clearly that I have the ability in by being to communicate effectively with animals by shape-shifting. Brenda's revelation feels familiar to me. I have memories of shape-shifting in past lives. I also recall visions of soaring above the mountains as a Turkey Vulture. I am not ready in this life to physically jump off of a mountaintop and fly with the hawks, and I still enjoy continuing to explore my memory and imagination! Thank you, Brenda, for sharing your insight with me.)

My second dream, in its sheer simplicity, was even more pivotal and transformational. My Uncle Tim visited me and shared his observation with me: "You know, since your sister was born, you really started to resent people." That was it. That was the whole dream. It was direct and literal (which actually makes it a vision that I received in my dream world).

I woke up this morning, my third day of my vision quest, contemplating this message. As much as I want to deny resenting people, I am also compelled to explore it with complete honesty.

Do I resent others? Is this a current pattern? If so, I choose to see examples of it. Immediately I experience a few recent scenarios. Oh my - I have been resenting people! This is a huge vulnerable discovery and realization. I recognize that I resent a person when I judge them to be irresponsible or uncaring towards me or others. I have even judged and resented people before I met them! I have judged based on looks, on body language, possessions, and even on stories that I heard from other people. When I judge, I resent.

Whoa - I feel some major energy moving through me now. I am getting up to go sit on the big rock in the sun to connect more deeply with my Divine Self and with Nature. I send an apology to all those I have judged, including myself, and ask forgiveness. I forgive myself.

Sitting on my rock, bathed in the golden glow of the morning sun, I contemplate, "Resentment and love resonate at different frequencies, so when I resent someone, I am not loving them." I experience this recognition with a vision and a feeling. I see and feel etheric cobwebs coating my lung points, heart, and throat. They are a dark-gray color, and very sticky - like cartoon tar that sticks to me. The more I try to pull the sticky tar off, the more it stretches, then snaps stubbornly and rigidly back into place. The substance itself feels harmless; it is simply coating and covering parts of my Divine Light.

When I feel these webs, I feel shame. I feel shame for feeling resentment. These are the webs of resentment and shame that I have woven for myself, and quite skillfully! I wove them with strength and elasticity. They have stretched in ways that made them seem invisible and benign. Now I choose to unwind and release my webs. Now that I choose love, my webs of resentment and shame no longer serve me.

I now call on my guides who I most trust and am familiar with: Master Paul and Mother Mary: Paint my webs with the hues of compassion and True Love. Master St. Germain: Transmute and transform my shame into my Faith and my self-love.

I pray this blessing with the fullness of my heart and with the full strength of my being. I know my transformation is happening now. I feel a specific energy of excitement move through me - my excitement! I increase and deepen my breath to move all of my energy with grace and ease.

As I feel this transformation, I am watching the morning sunlight move across the rocks to kiss the top of the waterfall. I feel the illuminated waters cleansing and clearing my entire being. I continue to breathe and feel my feelings.

The sun broadens its reach, and a beautiful rainbow appears in the waterfall. The hues of compassion! Beautiful! I love nature! I feel so blessed and loved that I am crying tears of joy! I feel the colors of compassion paint my being, illuminating my soul.

Just as I feel my hues of compassion settling into my being, a butterfly gracefully floats by me. Butterfly represents true transformation! I am now simultaneously laughing and crying as I allow the full significance of my transformation - complete with validation from nature - to fully permeate my being.

I feel inside where my webs were. I expect them to be gone, but they are still here - and completely transformed! I now see and feel a translucent and rainbow-hued energy where the dark, thick webs were. My translucent rainbow energy moves and expands where my True Essence moves and expands. I feel clear and open, as though a dusty window I have been looking through has been immaculately cleaned and opened, allowing me to breathe fresh air and see clearly. I feel expansive and grounded, as though my energy can flow through and around our entire planet, touching all order of beings with love and grace - all while I am here now - fully present, aware, and anchored in my beautiful nature space.

Thank you Master Paul and Mother Mary! Thank you illumined sun, cleansing waters, and rainbow of compassion! Thank you Master St. Germain and transformational butterfly! Thank you for helping me reclaim my hues of compassion, True love, faith, and self-love!

After I experience this amazing transformation, I stand up on my rock and realize I have to use the bathroom. This may sound odd and out of place at this point in the story, so I choose to clarify and expand this idea. According to Chinese Medicine, resentment is stored in the gallbladder. I have been consciously healing my liver and gallbladder for a few years now, and have experience with gallbladder cleansing.

Our gallbladder releases bile that helps us digest fats. I always know when my gallbladder is releasing or re-balancing because my eliminations come out green. This is Universal. Green poo = a message from our gallbladder.

So here I am on day 3 of my vision quest and water fast. I have just experienced a huge transformation where I shifted from resentment to compassion, and my gallbladder is now releasing physically! If anyone has been looking for proof that emotions affect our physical health, here it is! This is the most excited I have ever been in my life about green poo!

I proceed to jump around and dance with the enthusiasm and energy of a little girl - with rainbow butterfly wings, of course!

Stay tuned for part VII: My Gift from The Water Spirits

Vision Quest Blessings Part V: Do You See What I See?

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Brrr! It is really cold at night! As the morning dawns, I recognize that the large boulders and high walls of the canyon keep my circle well-shaded until about noon. That means my vision quest circle is cold in the mornings - Brrr! Laying snuggled in my sleeping bag, I notice a large rock just across the stream that is bathed in sunlight. I cross the stream and sit on the rock, filling myself with warm downloads from the sun. Ahhhhhh! Heavenly!

From here I see the canyon crevice that I climbed to reach this spot. I now recognize the scope of my accomplishment: I hiked and climbed all the way up here wearing a 40 pound backpack while water fasting. Wow! I celebrate my achievement and my life!

I am noticing how breezy it is today. More accurately, it is really windy - really! It's a good thing I'm not using a tent - that might just act as a large kite right now! I checked the forecast before I left home, and NOAA was forecasting average winds of 20 mph, with gusts up to 60 mph. I assure you their forecast is accurate where I am! It is also cold today. It is afternoon now and I am still wearing my long johns to keep warm! I am blessed to be surrounded by these beautiful boulders that help to block some of the gusts. Periodically when a particularly strong gust comes through, I curl up behind a big boulder. I feel safe, sheltered, and secure.

The sky is clear, and the sun is stunningly beautiful. The chill and strong winds combine with the steady warm glow of the sun to create both a powerful juxtaposition and a nurturing elemental partnership. Even though the wind is strong and the air is chilled, I am warmed by the light of the sun.

The sounds of the waterfall fill the air and permeate my being. This large rock where I sit is located in a perfect position to observe the waterfall. It also sits in a location where the sounds of the waterfall are amplified. As I notice this, the waterfall seems to grow even louder. I feel it's sound completely surrounding and engulfing me. This fall is about 15 feet tall. Its falling water smacks on flat rocks at its base. It is loud. I begin to feel irritated.

I recognize an opportunity to address my irritation with loud noises. In general, I have been uncomfortable with loud noised throughout my life. As I ponder my reaction to loud noises, I recall experiences of being at firework shows. I recall my fear of the loud explosions. Now that I explore this, I believe the first time I remember actually enjoying a fireworks display was when I witnessed one from a distance. With a clear view of the colorful lights and a healthy distance form the explosions, I finally appreciated the beauty of fireworks without fear.

When I journey back to my first experiences of fireworks shows, I feel myself rock back in fear. I feel myself bracing against the loud sounds. My throat, neck, and shoulders tighten. I trust in my ability to transmute this. I trust in my ability to allow vibrations and sounds to flow through me with grace and ease. I breathe. I allow the sounds of the fireworks - and the waterfall - to move gracefully through me. I release my resistance and unlock my barriers of fear. I embrace flexibility, safety, and peace.

These statements sound beautiful, and I still do not feel they are fully integrated into my Being. I choose to rest for a while to allow my complete integration of my experience. I move to my sleeping area and close my eyes...

"Kick up your shoes and dance!" This chorus in fully-synthesized Super Bowl half-time production quality wakes me from my peaceful rest. I laugh. A Lot! Where did this come from? If this is a test of how I now feel with sudden loud noises, I believe I have passed with flying colors! =-)

I get up and refill my water bottles. I am so blessed to drink right from the waterfall! I have a portable water filter pump with me (thank you, Dan!) that I use for my first step of water filtration. Then I add a drop of Thieves Essential Oil to each bottle to counteract any harmful microorganisms while also supporting and strengthening my immune system. I also add Polar Minerals for minerals and electrolytes. It works like a charm and tastes wonderful!

I move back to my circle. I am tired today, and grateful to be resting and stationary. As I am contemplating and resting, I pick up my water bottle. A moth flies in front of me and lands on the side of the bottle, reaches out with his (or her) tongue, and begins extracting something from the edge of my lid. I watch. Moths can do amazing things with their super-long, thin tongues. They basically have flexible crazy straws at their personal disposal at any given time! When the moth received what it was desiring, he rolled his tongue up into a perfect spiral, tucked it back in his mouth, and flew away. The beauty and perfection of the moth's spiral tongue held my attention. Nature is so amazing!

The day turns to evening. I climb into my sleeping bag and prepare for sleep. I notice the west flag again. This time, I begin to feel uncomfortable. I am feeling an emotion that I am challenged to identify.

Perhaps I can recognize how it sounds. I allow sounds to come from within me that embody the feeling. I allow audible vibrations to resonate with the feeling. A type of moaning results. Hmmm...it sounds like yearning. What am I yearning for? I yearn for clarity in many aspects of my life. I yearn for a clear voice and clear expression, as well as clear eyesight. As the concept of clear eyesight comes into my awareness, my emotions intensify - a clear indication that I am connecting with the root of my discomfort.

I choose to address my limiting beliefs around clear vision. As I explore this process, I write in my journal:

• My limiting belief: It is unreasonable to believe my eyesight will clear.
• Can I prove this is absolutely, undeniably true? No! Miracles happen every day - and to me, I affirm! I am ready to transmute this belief and receive a healing miracle.
• Where in my body do I feel this belief? As I ask myself this question, I close my eyes, take a deep breath, and focus my attention on my body sensations. I am feeling tightness in my head - especially in my temporal region.
• When was the first time I believed this limiting belief? Again I close my eyes and take a few breaths. This time I allow my awareness to move to the first time in my life that I believed this. I recall 6th grade, when I required glasses to see the blackboard clearly. I wore glasses when I was younger, then did not require them for 5 or 6 years. Then in 6th grade my vision began blurring. I remember feeling disappointed about requiring glasses and contacts. I am feeling now what I felt then - disappointed, angry, hurt, betrayed, and ashamed; as though I did something wrong and corrective lenses are a punishment or consequence of my actions. These emotions are intense. I begin to cry. I am feeling now what I felt then, and I am realizing that I have been carrying these feelings with me since 6th grade. I allow myself to cry and to feel my feelings.
• Who am I without this belief? What is my life like? How do I feel? I recognize that I am not being punished. I forgive myself now and in 6th grade for judging myself as anything less than my true, Divine Being. I recognize that my eyes are communicating something to me and I invite myself to fully receive this gift. I feel more free. I feel more supported. I feel circuits rewiring (subtly) in my energy matrix to allow my eyesight to clear with grace and ease. I can have clear vision. I can enjoy clear vision.
  

In the process of clearing this limiting belief, another appears:

• For my eyesight to clear, I must choose between nature and work.
• Where is this coming from? I recognize that even though my vision is blurred, I am functioning very well during my vision quest. I am connecting with and navigating in nature clearly. I feel safe and cared for. I am experiencing a connection and feeling of safety here in nature that I experience differently when my corrective lenses are on - especially when I am at work or working on a task. It feels as though a tuning dial is turning and a signal is clearing.
• Is this belief that I must choose between nature and work absolutely true? Of course not!
• Where in my body do I feel this belief? My solar plexus and lower abdomen (2nd chakra area) feel tight and constricted.
• When was the first time I believed this limiting belief? I am back in 6th grade again. My family and I moved to a part of the country that had more challenging schools. I invested more time studying and doing homework, and less time outside playing. I feel myself moving toward the 'business' of my studies and school as my work. This may have also been when I became increasingly task-oriented.
• I send blessings and love to my 6th grade self. I surround myself in a golden sphere of peace, trust, confidence, and faith. I send me belief in miracles.
• Who am I without this limiting belief? I blend the beauty and joy of nature with my work. I recognize the playful nature of my work. I blend the energies of nature and work and witness the sacred expression and infinite potentials that result. Wow. I really feel that. I feel my solar plexus opening. I am breating more freely. My lower abdomen begins to relax and open.
• What does this belief upgrade to? "I see clearly in nature and at work!" I see clearly in nature and at work. I see clearly in nature and at work. I breathe. I feel my new sense of clarity. I see clearly in nature and at work. I repeat this many times. My body relaxes, I feel my chakras align, and I drift into peaceful sleep.
  

Note: I used two sets of tools to address my former limiting beliefs: Byron Katie's The Work, and Mastery Systems' Conscious Language. I find these tools highly effective for transforming limiting beliefs into their Divine Upgrades!

Stay tuned for Part VI: The Hues of Compassion

Read Part I: The Calling
Read Part II: The Preparation
Read Part III: Trust and Commit
Read Part IV: The Bear in The Waterfall