Vision Quest Blessings Part VII: My Gift from Water

I open my eyes and breathe a deep, full breath. I am observing this morning's brightening colors and the cool, crisp air. Today is my final day on the mountain. I am nearing the completion of my journey.


I recognize that I have some logistics to tend to today: clearing my space, packing, and hiking down the mountain. First, it is time to perform my closing ceremonies.

I climb out of my sleeping bag. Whoops - Careful, Krystalle! (I often talk to myself when I require my attention!) I am feeling dizzy on the fourth morning of my water fast. I am okay. I am supported. Breathe. Breathe. Ahhh...I feel present in my body now. Why do we call it fasting, anyway? I am certainly doing things more slowly!

I create a small fire in my fire circle and offer a blessing to the beautiful nature spirits who surround me:

• Thank you Mother Earth, for supporting my journey. I feel your love and I am secure.
• Thank you Water, for clearing my way to become aware of my emotions. Thank you also for cleansing the debris of my past and showing me my true, Radiant Being.
• Thank you Fire, for fueling my amazing transformations.
• Thank you Air, for carrying my prayers to my God and to my human family.

I honor your assistance in my Vision Quest journey and in my every day.

With this prayer, I offer sage and place my prayer ties in the fire. I release all cords of attachment and feel my prayers soar free. When the fire is out, I clear my altar, sharing gratitude with my guides and with all of the directions. I remove my direction flags and replace the rocks from my circle to their natural configuration.

As I pack my gear, I glance at my path down the mountain. Wow. That looks steep today! I note the fear I am feeling and choose to come back fully into my present moment and have faith about my journey down. I made it here safely, and I will successfully descend.

I filter two bottles of crisp, clear water and add Vitamineral Green and Bee Pollen to one. Ahhh...nourishment from the gods! I allow the bee pollen to soften for a few minutes, then take my first drink. Heavenly and satisfying! My body desires just a few sips. I recognize that instead of drinking this all in one sitting, I will enjoy my first meal throughout my journey home.

I finish packing up my gear and hoist my backpack onto my shoulders. Whoa! My body is feeling a bit unsteady. I decide to move more slowly and be aware of my steps and my movements.

I turn around to see the waterfall one more time. Instantly I connect with my gratitude for this water, and for my experience. I am suddenly simultaneously crying and laughing, heaving my words and feelings of gratitude, between my sobs, into the powerful water before me. I am connecting intimately - intensely - with water's true essence and power. I continue to ride this surf of emotion as it courses through me.

I am forever changed, and forever blessed. I feel my water flowing in my body. Instantaneously, I feel the gratitude and blessings I am sharing with the waterfall rush into my being - mirrored back to me tenfold.

I am breathing great, full, rapid breaths to allow my intense waves of love and gratitude to resonate with every cell, atom, and electron of my being. This is a glimpse of true love's power - and it is far more powerful than any feeling I recall experiencing. I have full faith in the power of God's love! The power of this experience easily transforms even my darkest shadow feelings. I am feeling torrential, rushing rapids of cleansing love!

I am aware of an amazing realization: I can take the darkest of my dark thoughts, the most terrifying fear, the nastiest evils I have ever felt, combine them all together, and multiply them by 100... and their power still does not hold a candle to the explosive power of love I am feeling now.

Even as I am writing now (three months after completing my Vision Quest), my experience and my emotions of gratitude and love flood powerfully to and through me. As I am feeling this incredible power again, I am realizing what one of my teachers really means when he says, "love your fear, love your pain, love your hate." Even the most intense anger, hatred, and rage I have felt or heard of in my past are instantly dissolved in love's true power. I believe! I believe! I have faith in my God's love.

When my exchange with the waterfall is complete, I begin my journey down the mountain - forever changed in love's power. I climb and walk slowly, remaining fully present in my body. I can feel every rock, twig, leaf, and grain of sand under my feet. My senses feel so aware. I feel life and breath in all of my surroundings.

I stop to rest every 100 yards or so. I hear my breath as I walk, and I feel water's essence as I make my way down the winding creek.

I stop at the opening to turquoise canyon. I am awed by its beauty. I sit on a rock and listen to water. She begins to sing... Actually, I realize her song is already in progress, and has been for aeons. I hear a chorus of the most beautiful angelic voices singing a continuous melody. Part of this melody stays with me and repeats itself in my mind. It is so beautiful - I feel so blessed and touched. I share gratitude, take a deep, loving breath, and begin walking again.

The melody continues to loop in my mind. Then, from my BEing, words weave into the melody. I am receiving a gift from water - a song. Thank you! I am honored and grateful for my gift. I sing this song in its beautiful simplicity from my heart, in honor of this magical moment.

Stay Tuned for Part VIII: My Journey Home