Vision Quest Blessings Part VII: My Gift from Water

I open my eyes and breathe a deep, full breath. I am observing this morning's brightening colors and the cool, crisp air. Today is my final day on the mountain. I am nearing the completion of my journey.


I recognize that I have some logistics to tend to today: clearing my space, packing, and hiking down the mountain. First, it is time to perform my closing ceremonies.

I climb out of my sleeping bag. Whoops - Careful, Krystalle! (I often talk to myself when I require my attention!) I am feeling dizzy on the fourth morning of my water fast. I am okay. I am supported. Breathe. Breathe. Ahhh...I feel present in my body now. Why do we call it fasting, anyway? I am certainly doing things more slowly!

I create a small fire in my fire circle and offer a blessing to the beautiful nature spirits who surround me:

• Thank you Mother Earth, for supporting my journey. I feel your love and I am secure.
• Thank you Water, for clearing my way to become aware of my emotions. Thank you also for cleansing the debris of my past and showing me my true, Radiant Being.
• Thank you Fire, for fueling my amazing transformations.
• Thank you Air, for carrying my prayers to my God and to my human family.

I honor your assistance in my Vision Quest journey and in my every day.

With this prayer, I offer sage and place my prayer ties in the fire. I release all cords of attachment and feel my prayers soar free. When the fire is out, I clear my altar, sharing gratitude with my guides and with all of the directions. I remove my direction flags and replace the rocks from my circle to their natural configuration.

As I pack my gear, I glance at my path down the mountain. Wow. That looks steep today! I note the fear I am feeling and choose to come back fully into my present moment and have faith about my journey down. I made it here safely, and I will successfully descend.

I filter two bottles of crisp, clear water and add Vitamineral Green and Bee Pollen to one. Ahhh...nourishment from the gods! I allow the bee pollen to soften for a few minutes, then take my first drink. Heavenly and satisfying! My body desires just a few sips. I recognize that instead of drinking this all in one sitting, I will enjoy my first meal throughout my journey home.

I finish packing up my gear and hoist my backpack onto my shoulders. Whoa! My body is feeling a bit unsteady. I decide to move more slowly and be aware of my steps and my movements.

I turn around to see the waterfall one more time. Instantly I connect with my gratitude for this water, and for my experience. I am suddenly simultaneously crying and laughing, heaving my words and feelings of gratitude, between my sobs, into the powerful water before me. I am connecting intimately - intensely - with water's true essence and power. I continue to ride this surf of emotion as it courses through me.

I am forever changed, and forever blessed. I feel my water flowing in my body. Instantaneously, I feel the gratitude and blessings I am sharing with the waterfall rush into my being - mirrored back to me tenfold.

I am breathing great, full, rapid breaths to allow my intense waves of love and gratitude to resonate with every cell, atom, and electron of my being. This is a glimpse of true love's power - and it is far more powerful than any feeling I recall experiencing. I have full faith in the power of God's love! The power of this experience easily transforms even my darkest shadow feelings. I am feeling torrential, rushing rapids of cleansing love!

I am aware of an amazing realization: I can take the darkest of my dark thoughts, the most terrifying fear, the nastiest evils I have ever felt, combine them all together, and multiply them by 100... and their power still does not hold a candle to the explosive power of love I am feeling now.

Even as I am writing now (three months after completing my Vision Quest), my experience and my emotions of gratitude and love flood powerfully to and through me. As I am feeling this incredible power again, I am realizing what one of my teachers really means when he says, "love your fear, love your pain, love your hate." Even the most intense anger, hatred, and rage I have felt or heard of in my past are instantly dissolved in love's true power. I believe! I believe! I have faith in my God's love.

When my exchange with the waterfall is complete, I begin my journey down the mountain - forever changed in love's power. I climb and walk slowly, remaining fully present in my body. I can feel every rock, twig, leaf, and grain of sand under my feet. My senses feel so aware. I feel life and breath in all of my surroundings.

I stop to rest every 100 yards or so. I hear my breath as I walk, and I feel water's essence as I make my way down the winding creek.

I stop at the opening to turquoise canyon. I am awed by its beauty. I sit on a rock and listen to water. She begins to sing... Actually, I realize her song is already in progress, and has been for aeons. I hear a chorus of the most beautiful angelic voices singing a continuous melody. Part of this melody stays with me and repeats itself in my mind. It is so beautiful - I feel so blessed and touched. I share gratitude, take a deep, loving breath, and begin walking again.

The melody continues to loop in my mind. Then, from my BEing, words weave into the melody. I am receiving a gift from water - a song. Thank you! I am honored and grateful for my gift. I sing this song in its beautiful simplicity from my heart, in honor of this magical moment.

Stay Tuned for Part VIII: My Journey Home

Cosmic Inspirations!

I wrote this post at the July 2009 full moon. I am still deeply touched by the energies that moved through me that day and am enthusiastic to share this message with you. Enjoy!
Each full moon is personal and universal, while a few times a year an eclipse reveals more to us. The energy spectrum is broadened for us to view more than usual. At this eclipse (the exact eclipse happened early this morning, and we are still in the window of its energy), we are invited to broaden our understanding of what is stirring in our world, to re-ignite hope in our world's people, and to confront our old voices of societal authority within us, so we can more clearly hear our own inner voices.
-This message was adapted from Julia Biondi's message on MoonCircles.com

Krystalle's Commentary:
In some parts of our world, people such as the Iranian Lionesses are standing up to their governments, voicing their desires, and demanding respect. How can we truly make a difference in our world?
I invite us to delve within and identify our 'societal programming', 'thought-forms', and 'inherited beliefs' we carry. I invite us to stand firmly in our Truth and our Divine Love, and courageously demand that we live our Divine Perfection. I am firm in my resolve: No longer do I allow "it's hard" to rule me; Now I stand grounded in my trust and courage - I demand my Divine Authority to re-inhabit its rightful place as my ruler. I banish doubt and return faith to its position of authority in my internal government. When I meet judgment and hate in my inner world, I invite them into my palace, thank them for carrying out their assigned duties, and knight them into their new roles of compassion, forgiveness, and intense love.

As we all transform our inner territory and demand that our Divine Love take its rightful place as our personal authority, our external world must change: our families, our schools, our businesses, and our governments.

Blessings in your Empowered Transformations!
Krystalle